Lisa Kudrow is opening up about her experience with body image. During her appearance on the Podcrushed podcast in August, the actress spoke about how she felt after seeing her costars Jennifer Aniston and Courteney Cox “in clothes” while starring in the popular sitcom Friends. “I thought I was just really skinny. I can do whatever, [but] no, especially in high school. And I look at pictures and say, ‘Wow, pictures really distort reality,’” she said. “And it wasn’t until Friends that I realized, ‘Oh, I don’t look like I thought I looked.’”

“And that’s what was so jarring, and that’s when it was like, ‘Oh, I’ve got to actually lose weight? I have to diet? Shoot,’” Kudrow, 59, continued. When asked what triggered such thoughts, she explained, “It was just seeing myself on the show and seeing myself in clothes and seeing Courteney and Jennifer in clothes.” “And at first I thought, ‘Oh, because they know, like, tailoring, so they can discuss it with the costume designer about where, exactly, to take something in,” she said.

Explaining that she later asked one of the costars to come to her fitting because they were like “sisters,” she added, “That’s when I would see, ‘Oh, okay, it’s not just about tailoring…’ And I’m not trying to say I was overweight, either. I was not. I just had no idea the shape of my actual body.” However, the actress’ perception of her body image eventually changed as she grew older.